So this week has been a little strange thus far. Sunday was horrible in a lot of ways. I was incredibly stressed out all day, it was just one thing after another coming up...like once one thing got worked out and I felt like I could sit back and breath, another thing surfaced and it was like that literally from about an hour after I got up until probably about an hour before I went to bed. The really bad stuff didn't happen until that night though, the most major thing being something that I can't be specific about, but made me feel like I had been lied to and that I didn't know a certain friend as well as I thought I did. It ended up being on my mind constantly for the next couple of hours and infuriated me so much that I had this overwhelming feeling to find a punching bag and go crazy, cry, and scream as loud as I could...and of course the overload of emotion led me to feeling like I was going to throw up as well. Of course, I was just being a typical girl and reacting without thinking and getting way too emotional which I now feel slightly ashamed of...but the next day I was able to calm down and once I did, I realized what had actually happened and the situation wasn't bad at all. The sad thing is, even though there was nothing wrong with it at all, the way I initially portrayed it has shaken my confidence in that person quite terribly and I haven't been able to fix it yet. I guess time is always a factor in healing though, so I'm hoping with time my confidence will be restored.
I also spent a good deal of time last night researching some "out of the box" summer job ideas. While I will probably do some normal job around here this summer b.c of time constraints and financial needs, I am hoping to find either an internship or job in a different state for next summer. I was looking into jobs that expect most people to be out of state so they provide living arrangements. I really did a lot of research into the big florida theme parks like disney and seaworld and I'm putting a lot of thought into doing the Disney College Program which would have me living there and taking classes through them for a semester while working in the parks. I just think it'd be really cool to have the experience of living there for a semester and it would look good on a resume. I'm also looking into some kind of student job on a cruise ship so that I could spend the summer working abroad, but so far I have had no such luck.
That's really the two most pressing things that have been on my mind the past few days. I've got classes tomorrow, work all day Thursday, then choir practice, then heading to Ecity to meet Ryan and driving overnight out to Kernersville (a little town between Greensboro and Winston-Salem) to spend the weekend with him and Meghan...so excited to be getting out of town for the weekend!
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